The Win in the Loss

#God, #inspiration,loveThe decision was out of my control and the pressure I felt was entirely self-imposed.

When I first learned my book was a finalist for an award I was overwhelmed. Gratitude to God was present in the tears that flowed. He had blessed me for heeding his call on my life.

I’ve just returned from the Word Awards in Toronto. As the time grew closer for the winner to be announced my thoughts changed. They became more about me than the opportunity to serve God by sharing the words he’s given me to write.

If I wasn’t the winner, would that make me a loser? Would I be a disappointment to those that have cheered me on?

It wasn’t until someone else’s name was called that I realized it doesn’t take an award to make me a winner. The outpouring of love, support and positive comments I received from family and friends washed over me like a healing balm. To them and to God, I was still a winner.

You see, I let it become about me when it was never supposed to be. In the Bible it says:”If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God.” I firmly believe it is the same for those who write.
The words God has given me to write are not for my benefit alone. The goal is to inspire others and point them to him. This is for his glory, not mine. To know I am doing what God wants me to is greater than any other reward.

My heart was not ready to receive an outside award. When I am completely surrendered to him and his calling on my life and not concerned about outside validation I will be ready. I don’t know when that day will come, but for now I thank him for loving me enough to keep me humble.

Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. (1 Peter 4:10-11 NIV)

All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, “God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.” Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. (1 Peter 5:5-6 NIV)

6 thoughts on “The Win in the Loss”

    1. Eleanor, I hope I would have eventually come to the same conclusion even without comforting words from friends and family, but they sure helped that night! I am so very grateful to God for choosing me to share his truth through writing. That’s all that really matters!

  1. Tandy,
    You always have been and you always will be a winner in my world. An award doesn’t change anything for me.
    I wish you had won it but for me it’s completely irrelevant.
    I love your humble attitude.
    I couldn’t agree with your thoughts more.
    You are inspiring me today to remain humble too.
    Someone in business is being completely irrational and narcissistic. I think remaining humble will serve God’s purposes for me.
    Please keep up your wonderful insights.
    Thanks so much.
    Noel

    1. Thank you for your kind words Noel. You’ve been one of my champions from the start. I never thought I’d thank God for not allowing me to win the award, but I was reminded of a very important lesson that I had temporarily lost sight of.

    1. Thanks Karma. It took me a day to get to that point, but when I could honestly thank God for. It allowing me to win, I knew my heart was right once again.

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